Thursday, August 4, 2011

Week 1 of chemo

7/18/11

Let me tell you that being in/on chemo is not something for everyone.  I see it in different stages in the Treatment Room every week.  Although I am only going for 4 treatments (spaced 3 weeks apart each). I’ve still gone on the off weeks for blood – so the appointment(s) were originally for – more on that later.


Week 1 of chemo:  SLEEP.  It’s all I wanna do for 3 whole days so I do.  I don’t eat, I drink when awake (approx.. 4 hrs of the day, not all at once), I pee.  The day after Round 1, I get the Neulasta shot to help build up my red/white BCC, which suffers during chemo.  Breda, my amazing Mother-in-Law, comes up to give it to me. She is a Godsend (along with everyone else) during this time and I am VERY GLAD that she is here for me.  I’m told the new side effects of the shot:  flu like with bone pain you probably never felt before.  Why bones?  WBC’s are created from Bone marrow.  Guess what?  They were right – the pain made my body crawl like I had the DT’s (so I’ve been told by a man who went through DT’s when I was a young girl).  So, I slept and used Tylenol & Claritan as told.  Of course, it did nothing for me, but I kept sleeping.  Sleep brings the natural numbing mechanism our bodies go into – it was a blessing.  When I woke, I was miserable, so I went back to sleep.  By Sunday the 17th, my head needed to be split open.  It started Saturday night – a side effect I figured – and increased in PAIN by Sunday.  I wasn’t told I could take anything other than Tylenol and would see the Dr. on Tuesday….Hmmmm…could I endure?  NOT!!!!!


I called Mike & Peggy (who are going through the chemo/radiation thing as well, remember?).   What I really did was text because I couldn’t talk.  It hurt my head and my throat – which was incredibly dry.  Can I take ANYthing else for this pain?  Of course, they told me – whatever you got.  So I popped my 800 mg Ibuprophen and texted the Dr. for more advice.  She said the IB was fine and we could try Percocet next if needed.  My voice was practically gone by evening, so I didn’t call back cause I was going in Tuesday, right?  WRONG!!!

 No voice Monday – it’s a side-effect right? L  Oh, Chris flew out to Seattle yesterday for the week.  He was pretty torn, but I told him I’d be fine with Kurt, my neighbors, friends & Breda while he was gone.  I did forget to mention, not intentionally, that he has been MY ROCK.  Yes, me the Rock for everyone else has one of her own.  He tended to EVERY need before he left and has been my crying towel and reminder why I am going through all this. To get better.  Well, with a best friend and husband like this, how could I forget?


On 7/19 I went in for blood work and follow-up with my head still splitting, my bones in agony.  Yes, I was lightly reprimanded by my chemo oncologist, Dr Rao.  She is a terrific, sensitive & VERY CARING.  EXACTLY who you need along the journey.  She is also Mike’s Dr., I’m glad they recommended her.  So, back to the blood.  They take it then tell me counts are good.  When Dr. Rao sees me she knows I’m still in pain and chides me for not letting her know.  I reply that every single drug I’m on says side effect of headache, so I figure, OK.  “No”, she says, “You are severely dehydrated.”  Funny, I am soooo good at letting other people know when they are getting to that point and forgot to self-diagnose.  That’s me, even going through chemo I’m worried about everyone else and forgetting about me.  Well, after this appointment I start self-caring and pay attention to my body again.  Oh, Breda is once again with me and now she & Dr. Rao have their plan all mapped out for me – they have become colleagues in my recovery. I like that!  I got 4 new scripts and new pain management instructions:  CALL ME if none of this helps!  Oh, and come back Friday for more fluids.

So I get the bags hooked up – steroids, anti-nausea, then 500 mg of Saline. Just a snack, but it still takes a couple hours.  Breda hung in there with me – I think she already knew I was dehydrated and this would be a longer appointment time than I was expecting.  My voice came back some by the end of the Saline and I felt better.  Breda & I then go on our trips to the various stores for meds, some Gatorade & applesauce, etc.  She brings me home, meets up with Al (her beau) for dinner, grabs my last med at a different pharmacy and comes on back.  I actually had an appetite tonight!  I had a little pasta with chicken and other little portions of whatever I could find.  Then got a nice surprise – Kathy Freeland popped over with Pedialyte, chicken soup and other food she thought I might want during this time.  She was here with me, keeping me company while Kurt got a reprieve, when Breda came back with the meds.  I think she was happy to see me with someone and not alone.

7/15/11 No Matter Our Age, We ALWAYS cry home to MOMMY!

REPLY from Mom to 7/14 email:
From: Flo [Mommy]
Sent: Thursday, July 14, 2011 3:50 PM
To: Reggie
Subject: Re: round one

keep up your spirit. how long is the nausea etc. going to last? we had a great time with Braelyn and Carissa and Rob. she had us laughing constantly. I was coughing into my hand and she watched and then did the same thing. funny thing is when she really coughed, she covered her mouth. then she was watching daddy rubbing his forehead and started doing that too. the best thing is when she played peek boo. she covered her ears instead of her eyes. she loved the pool and the beach.

did Breda give you your shot today? hope each day gets easier we love you,
July 15, 2011----- Original Message -----
From: Reggie
Sent: Friday, July 15, 2011 8:15 AM
Subject: RE: round one

 Side effects can last for 2 weeks, then the next round and it starts over.  It’s just uncomfortable – woke up this morning nauseous, achy, bones hurting…it’s not fun, but as Aunt Agnes says – if it’s gonna save your life.

Breda came to give me the shot today & showed Chris in case she can’t make it up.  No biggee, but it gives you a shot of bacteria to promote white blood cells, so that means your bone marrow is tapped to produce them so you hurt lots in your bones.  Hasn’t been fun.

7/14/11 Day after Chemo ROund 1

Email to Family

From: Reggie
To: FAMILY
Sent: Thursday, July 14, 2011 11:03 AM
Subject: round one

Round one of chemo:

 Whelp, it was 4 hours in a chair - luckily Breda was there for company and support.

Started off by taking blood counts - the nurse collapsed my first vein then proceeded to the other arm. Bummer.

Then off to the chair and getting my "salad, appy's and main courses" as the one nurse put it. :)  First the IV in the hand, then small bag saline to flush, then anti-nausea, then steroids (to help with CBC's), then the first course of the TC: docetaxel (Taxotere) and then the cyclophosphamide.  Had a bit of an allergic reaction towards the end of the first bag, so they stopped it and gave me Benadryl (25 mg).  Needless to say in 10 mins. it worked, on went the 2nd bag and off went my brain.  So, when it was done, I was woken up.  That's why you bring a driver!

Got home, ate half sandwich then off to bed for 5 hours!

 Now I get some nausea, lightheadedness, headaches, and all sorts of pains, no appetite, and other lovely side-effects.  Dealing with them and keeping the smile handy!

One day at a time!

7/8/11 Haircutz

Back from a WONDERFUL & GRAND 3.5 week excursion in Ireland!!!
Rest, Relaxed, and READY!!

Taking advice from women I know who went through Breast Cancer & chemo – cut it short, get used to it then buzz it when it starts coming out!!  Chemo Round 1 starts 7/13/11.

Kurt & I BOTH went and took off 7” – at least!

5/25/11 Well Wishes from the Family...

Nothing like Love pick-me-ups!!!  Spread Love & Smiles and get them BACK tenfold!!!  Here's jsut a smpling

From: Kathy [sister]
Sent: Wednesday, May 25, 2011 5:37 PM
To: Reggie
Subject: Re: bummer news
Oh, Regina.... my heart goes out to you... leaking tears as I write this.  As much as I complain about my hair I would still miss it. 
Some of my friends with longer hair cut their hair short before they started chemo so it was a little less depressing - still depressing but they said it helped a little.  Joyce's sister (Victor's wife) even got a super short haircut beforehand (think Sinead O'Connor) but I wouldn't go that far! 
 I will be mostly around after July 12th so if you need rides to chemo, someone to sit there with you, just let me know...


Sent: Thursday, May 26, 2011 6:56 AM
To: 'Michael [brother]'
Subject: RE: bummer news
Yes, chemo will make sure IF there is any cancer elsewhere it will be banished forever!  The only reason we’re doing this is because cancer travels swiftly thru the lymph nodes. So when they found a little bit in one of the node biopsies,  that sealed the deal of having to get it. L
I hope your appt’s go well – I am most certain they will!
From: Michael Doherty [mailto:unkelfunkel55@yahoo.com]
Sent: Thursday, May 26, 2011 1:26 AM
To: Reggie
Subject: Re: bummer news
Sad to hear, meine Schwester.  will the treatment get rid of all of it?  will it spread more between now and treatment, or is relatively under control?  why do you have to wait until July?  Sometimes I don't understand about cancer.  I guess "conditions" run in our family.  well, enjoy life and don't sweat the interruptions too much. 


<cousin Sean D>               Hi Regina,
Sorry to hear the news, but I am glad that you found it in the early stages.
As always, it seems you have your positive attitude, which I personally believe makes a huge difference.

We are thinking of you here in Rochester.

Love,      Sean


-----Original Message-----
From: [Aunt & Uncle]
Sent: Friday, May 06, 2011 8:53 AM
Subject: Re: what's up with me?

Hi Regina,

We read your email with horror!  But we'll take your advice to heart.  Just keep us updated and if there is anything we can do, let us know.  Have you been in touch with Sean?

We love you and know things are going to be great!    Aunt Carol and Uncle Johnny


From: agnes [Aunt]
Sent: Wednesday, May 04, 2011 8:04 PM
So sorry. That kind of news is always hard to take but it does sound positive.  Years ago my original gyn told me NEVER to take hormones because I produce too much and I listened to him.  Since you produce too many it might be genetic.  Keep your chin up.  Wish you only the best.
Love,         Aunt Agnes

From: Camille [niece]
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2011 7:22 PM

Hey my favorite Tia, so sorry to hear this news of your recent health scare, I first want to say I am here for you always!  Although I am far, you are never far from my heart or prayers!  You will be getting extra hugs, prayers, smiles, and love sent to you on the daily!  Why all the colors because you are as beautiful as a rainbow and my love and respect for you go as far and wide as rainbows and further, my love for is unending...I love you sooooooooo much!!! Your niece Camille xoxoxox

5/25/2011 No way to sugar coat it…

No way to sugar coat it…

Turns out I have microscopic clusters (3 clusters < 2mm called N1) of cancer cells in ONE of the 2 nodes taken in surgery 5/16. 

So, VERY heartbroken to say….I will miss my hair after July.  I guess the good news is, everything else was negative and I will only get 4 doses of Chemo (2-drug regiment) spread over 12 weeks.  Then I’ll go for the radiation as originally planned. 

Can’t wait for Ireland!!!!

So…How do I feel?  Nothing positive at first, of course.  Chemo?  Who wants that?  Losing my most precious hair?!?!?  I’m more upset over THAT than the breast cancer!!!  So, now I will see about making a wig from my hair and maybe Kurt will give me some of his.  Of course, he’s taking it harder than I am.

5/16 & 5/17/11 Surgery & the day after

5/16/2011

Of course, the surgery was a success today and I am home being nursed and cared for by my two men.
The node biopsies came back negative!  Now we await the tissue margin results, etc.
Thanks to ALL for your prayers and love – it HELPS!!!!

5/17/2011

Well, as I knew….the surgery went very well!!!  No more ILC’s, nodes came back NEGATIVE, Percocet’s help with the pain, and my two men are nursing me back to health.  Nancy, as always, is the greatest of friends – she visited today and brought me flowers in a smile vase!!!
Chris has got to be the best husband any woman can have.  He is truly a gem – he’s my best friend, caregiver, anticipator (of me & my actions)…he keeps me safe and secure, loved and on track.